September 14th, 2003


[Trivial Shit] "I'm not even supposed to be here today!"


So, it's about 8:25am on a Sunday and I'm already here at Radio Shack. I'm both opening and closing today, meaning I had to get up at 7:30am and I won't be home until 7:30pm. And we're open shorter hours than normal today, because it's a Sunday. So really, beside the fact that my manager is very cool (and man am I thankful for that...) this is still a pretty typical retail hell job. And as I was opening up shop, I had a real Dante from Clerks moment. I had just finished turning on the lights, emptying the trash, and rotating the backup tape in the back. And having finished my tasks, I was faced with the realization that I had essentially nothing to do for the next 8 hours except sit on my ass. And maybe, if I was lucky, a customer would come in and break the boredom.

You know that shot in Clerks, where Dante has the same realization? He's just checked the register and started the coffe machine. Flips the front door sign over from "closed" to "open". Then he goes back behind the counter, sits down, and starts waiting. About two seconds later, he rolls his eyes in disgust and then thunks his head down on the counter.

That was me this morning. Ah, retail hell... how I love thee. ;]

(Since I started this post, we've had about five customers through, one guy looking for a job application, my cow-orker for the day came in, and the music is now KMFDM - Stray Bullet. So I guess life ain't all bad...)
  • Current Music
    Seraphim Shock - Rise and Resist

[ISTGINMTSU] Fan mail/suicide note from a random BGC otaku.

Let's start out by saying that he didn't go through with it, and everything seems, well, not okay, but at least not-killing-himself level now. (Which is good, because I would have had to go to where he killed himself and pissed on his grave for being such a presumptious idiot...) But he told me to keep the box of stuff anyway.

Ben Cantrick,

I've never met you Ben, and yet I have developed a great respect for you through what you've written. You have been a refreshingly intelligent presence in an otherwise stale and banal world. I hope you will recover from this slump in your life.

You're probably asking yourself why I've sent you this stuff. The answer is easy enough, I wanted it all to have a good home. By the time you read this I'll be dead. My life is just that, mine, and I have chosen to end it. I don't know that you'll care why, but simply put this world is not a world that I wish to live in anymore. It's not about something stupid like lost love or money or anything as banal and temporal as that. It's just not a place I can endure any more. I think you'll understand. If not, don't worry about it.

I have enclosed a few things, and hope you can do a couple of things for me. The first thing you'll note are the loose pages that used to be bound together as the Crisis and Crash! B-Clubs. I hope you can get these to Doc Raven (Andy McDermott IIRC) for Raven's Garage. If anyone will do text scanning for translators, it'll be him; and no worry about broken spines! Also included are the last remaining first run copies of the Digital B-Club. Keep 'em, distribute them to the regulars, whatever. I trust your judgement. For you, everything else in the box.

I wish for you your health, all the wealth you'll need, and enough happiness to make it worth having both. An if, perchance, you ever cross paths with the red eyed one on a long and lonely stretch of highway with your loose leather collar flapping in the breeze, I hope you can catch her.

So now I'm getting letters that are both suicide notes AND otaku fan mail? Do I get some kind of award for this? (Please??)

If the reference in the last paragraph eludes you, you can read Highways - and then tell me I suck as a writer. ;]

The box that came with the letter contained the following items:

* 11 BGC Digital BClub/BGCrash! Digital BClub 2 CDROM set

* Original Futureland BGC Complete Vocal Collection vol 1 and 2 discs, with all inserts including the obis.

* Bubblegum Crisis and Bubblegum Crash! B-Clubs, sans spines

* Kenichi Sonoda Artworks 1983-1997

* B-Club Film Comic BGC ep 1, 2 and 3

* Viz ADPolice graphic novel

* One CD-ROM labeled "All Things BGC - My BGC Files Collection"

* Tosh/EMI "Not For Sale" BGC ep 7 "Reika Live Stage Book"

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In accordance with his wishes, the de-spined B-Clubs will be shipped to Andy Skuse (Andy McDermott was the one who wrote the infamous Hackenbacker Memo), as soon as I can get in touch with him.

I'll be contacting a few specific people about the Digital B-Clubs, but I won't be able to send them all off that way. I'll let everyone know when the rest are ready to go up for grabs. Denizens of will get priority over others.
  • Current Music
    Warren Zevon - Life'll Kill Ya